Wednesday The 9th February 2011

Wednesday, 9th February 2011

Hmmm...what can I say about today...Just too many memories related to this date in the past year and today here am I at home sitting alone in front of the television watching AXN CSI (S9)...

My parents had to leave me home alone to attend a funeral. It’s my uncle's father passed away peaceful because of old age yesterday....~May You Rest In Peace~

I'm sorry I could not pay you my last respect as I’m stuck with my muscle cramps...My prayers will always be there for you grandpa...

Today is the birthday of a long lost friend  of mine, Danny*...Not to say lost...To be accurate we had a fought and it had been 2 years I guess since than...We still have each other’s Yahoo Messenger and contact number yet we never did contact each other...WHY? Maybe it’s because of the EGO between us...I wait for him to contact me while he waits for me..I don't really know if he still cared for a friend like me anymore.YES it might be my fault the whole fight stared...But my apology don't mean anything to him then.As time passed, I taught it wasn't my fault after all and I give up.

We was good friends than, so everyone knew we are friends.It was a tough time after the fought when people asked me about him to me.My only answer will be “I can't be bothered bout him”, which practically left those asking clueless...Yes I do feel guilty sometimes for being so sarcastic. But then honestly what do I care?

Last year on this date, I remember I was close to Jay* and Phoenix.They were Certificate in Computer Science student in college.Well not everyone of A Levels student befriend with other course student in KTT..It’s some sort of tradition I guess...So like everyone guessed there were many scandals about us in college.Some as bad as saying that I coupled with one of the guy!! OMG!! That was really miserable time in college!

It was this same day I went up hill with Jay, Phoenix and Yoges...It’s also where the whole issue of TANGLISH came up! I really can't recall how it came about but that small issues had torn our friendship apart as well..He created a social network group, some sort against me..I was angry and I just stop talking.That was pretty much the end to my friendship with Jay.

The year 2011 came by, I decided that I don't wanna lose my friendship that has taken months and years to build but only a day to destroy it!I made up with Jay.I accept it as no one is prefect and no one can escape from making mistakes in their life right?

I have forgiven Danny too even I know that nothing will be same again...Hey I have learned to let it go.You know it too, our life have taken a turn since than.I'm not expecting anything from you.No never will I..Even when you came back to me asking help for AS A Levels Chemistry, I did it with open heart and expecting nothing but a simple word of thanks from you which I did not get...

Its ok, for at least I have known who you really are.I should thank you.

Anyway I would like to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Expecting nothing in return!

A message send to me from Jay on 9^th February 2010

(Its in Tamil)

 ((0))

=!=

Intha flower namma relationship ku

adaiyalama vachukonga!

Please idhu vaadame irruka,

ungga mobiley thanni tank la

pottu vainge. :-p

Kept  this message just as a memory....

*Name has been changed to maintain privacy..hehehe…