Go Get A Life

Before I start blogging what really in my mind now I would like to highlight something really important to some kind soul that consider themselves so caring about me.

Firstly, i really have to thank you for keeping yourselves so updated with my blog. I really appreciate it...I DO. No kidding!

Secondly, whatever i write or blog here has nothing to do with anyone else but me myself....YES ONLY ME!
So,that's the reason the names in this blog have been changed to maintain privacy.And those name that is kept real has got permission from the owner of the name....hehehe..

Thirdly, whatever that i blog here involves the incidents in my real life and my true feelings on certain matters as stated. The feeling of anger, jealousy, envy, heartbreak, etc. is my personal feelings and personal rights to tell/inform anyone written or non written. Its a HAK INDIVIDU, if u have read or heard about it. I believe you have. Thus, my point here is that you have no rights to doubt or to argue or even to go against it!

Hope you understand what i really want you to know.

P/s: Don't stick your nose where it doesn't belong.

Read and understand these.....

Everyone’s great, or so one feels.
If no such feeling, can anyone live?
The desire to rule is not very bad, not at all.
Only misdirected.
To have dominion was man created.
But he can’t even rule his own spirit.
A slave to passion, a slave to the world,
Unruled passion, kings of destiny – but still slaves,
If one can will, but one can’t.

I’m better than most, better than all.
If none such feeling, won’t I continually fall?
Vainful ego, vain contentions,
Ego-contentions, Ego-war,
Ego-affronts, Ego-masks,
Ego-presumptions, Ego-affections,
‘I’ must prevail, ‘truth’ not.
Downroad destruction.

Imagination, warped reality, self’s own construction.
Ego (I) spins a world of its own:
Everyone has a world of his own.
Where world’s agree, favors arise.
Where world’s collide, wars arise.
Worlds are egos, Egos wear masks.
So are all agreements, masked.
Behind the veil hides the unknown, which ego finds not.

And falling forwards,
Faces the world behind its mask, created by the world.
And the world wears masks.
But it has its own world, its own understanding.
Yet behind the dynamic – flux of these worlds
Lies the unknown, static, stately, still, who knows?

It sees its face in the mirror of its world
And sees the mask.
It takes it for its face
And so takes its world for its face.
Therefore, worlds are egos, I say.
You never see the truth; for truth is itself masked.

But remove the mask
What remains is the unknown.
The mask is better than the unknown.
And where one is unsure of the truth,
There teachers prevail.
And the teachers wear masks, give masks.

‘This thing cannot be known, except it were given to you by the Father.’
‘Lord, search me and try me.
Send forth thy light and thy truth.’

And these might brighten you up....

Remembering the most
Difficult road to travel
Reflecting on them
It was an anxious time
As i did not
Know what to expect
Every passing day
Was another
Day of uncertainty
Those sure were
Some tough times
But as i was about
To lost directions
Signs somewhere along
The path that direct me
To open my eyes
Then i began to smiled
As i thought about
The wonderful
Places i have been
People i have met
Things i have gotten to do
It’s really been
A good a life
Both good and bad.

Giving My Best

I was so busy that i totally forget to actually update my blog about all the happy and nice stuff!! haha..

Officially my P license ended on the 19th February 2011. Since it was a Saturday, had time only yesterday to make the full license. So ITS OFFICIAL. I HAVE A FULL DRIVING LICENSE...OMG!! I'm so excited..haha..

Totally random pic fr google..

It feels so great that i have a full license now compared to just having a P license then. And, while most of my friends are only doing their QTI Test and JPJ Test in this holidays. To Yuen Quan i would like to wish you all the best for your JPJ test today!! You can do it!! Gambateh!

I had an appointment with the optician last Monday. It was actually to check my eyes power again and to make a specks for me. SPEAKS!!! YESSS!! FOR ME!! I know its totally hard to imagine putting a speck on me!  

Since my power have be checked before and it was quite high.It was suggested that i should wear a speak.

The guy working at the shop asked us to choose the frame that i want and like..I practically tried ALL the frames they have because NOTHING look good on me..LOL

At last I and my family decided on one that look not that bad on me.The best part of the speak that i like is that is really really light and when i wear it, its not that obvious at all since it has thin frame.

Then, the optician said that we should check again the power to confirm before ordering the speaks.

Well after the check, my power really gave everyone a shock even the optician! My power actually decreased by 25 on both side of the eyes. Even my astic drop half  the original! FUH!! 

The optician looked more surprised than i do. He was like how old are you now? When i mentioned that i was going to be 20 this year, he was like usually during this age the power will increase but your decrease??!!

HAHAHAHA~

To add more, my dad had to tell that guy that i have been always in front of the computer the whole day.

Well look like using more computer decreased my power..

The optician have asked me to come back after two weeks to check my power again as its not stable and might decrease more later.

YES!! No speaks for me YET!! At least for the moment....

That also means that i don't have to embarrass myself  wearing speaks on KI registration!! It will be a total surprise for all of the KTT-ians. PAVITRA IN SPEAKS! 

Worst can't imagine me having to face Puva, Jaya. Phoenix and Kim that will surely laugh at me if i'm in speaks.

But hey RR wears speaks too..That might increase our chemistry..hehe..

(Huzai if ever you read this, keep your mouth shut.Don't go and tell RR.Its my last 3 months with him!!!)

Yesterday after coming back from making the license in the evening,as usual i was online when Qiqi gave a shocking news. Not exactly shocking shocking news but.....(i have no words to describe it)

It was the KI registration letter.FUH! This will be in history. JPA official letter send to student by FACEBOOK!!!

AND

It was the documents needed for the university application. OMG I just realize that we actually need so many different documents in so many copies. 

Worst we need to translate all the documents, certificate and even NRIC to English as those will be send to Medical Universities in India..(They don't understand Malay as all the documents are in Malay!!)

YES that leaves me with terribly lots of work to do after all this while sitting at home doing nothing JPA really had to give us this last minute paper works!

While was getting the news about the paper works that have to be done, a good friend of mine came online chatting with me and told me a little secret that i'm not suppose to tell anyone..hehehe..But SL i really have to thank me for telling me the truth about that issue.I have suspected it as well but i don't blame on the person on the spot! Well i learned that lesson from that person jugak! I'm not like that person. I'm different! I AM!!

As i have told you i created this blog on my own will and whatever i write in this blog is just to express myself and not expecting a change from anyone. I like the way it is now.

About seeing a difference we were chatting about, i will just leave it. If it really happen or it doesn't, it will not effect me in any way. I don't want to loose my friendships but things are really different now for all and its time to move on. I already have a deep taught on it....;-)

Yesterday was also the award day for the Top In The World student...AAARRRGGGHHH!! 

YES I"M JEALOUS!!

Maybe it was not fated for me to get that 4 A* right?

I will not give up. My future is still bright.

I promise i will graduate as a great doctor with First Class Honor and be a well known Neurologist

YES I WILL!

However i was still sad when i came across with Lonny, Kesa and Vitty's facebook new uploads.It was the ceremony pictures...Hmmm..what can i do now?

Then came Kesa chatting with me about the documents that we are suppose to prepare.Out of sudden she mentioned to me " I saw Danny yesterday" (YES its the same Danny from the previous post)

I could only wonder why do everyone have to mention his name to me now??

According to Kesa, he got award for AS LAW....Congratulations. What else can i say? I envy you. I seriously do. Well if  i took LAW i might have got it too.SERIOUSLY... Try doing Biology and Physics, you will know...

Still i have to thanks all my lecturers at KTT....

Hopping for the best now...Wish me luck

* Will inform if this comes true*

Think that's all i can write now as i have a CURRICULUM VITAE to be done and i stiill have no idea what to write in it.. Wish me luck again..hehe..

Have a great day ahead!

No String Attached...

A guy and girl try to keep their relationship strictly physical, but it's not long before they learn that they want something more.. 

"A perfectly acceptable romantic comedy."

The Trailer....

The Review on the movie..

No Strings Attached kind of wants to pretend that it came up with the idea of friends with benefits, that somehow this concept has gone long undiscussed and by gum, it's time to have a real exploration of this important issue facing our society. "Can there be sex without someone getting hurt?" The film begs us to consider, and from the get-go it seems impossible. The problem is veteran director Ivan Reitman isn't breaking new ground or exploring anything other than the very modern and deeply ingrained desire to have it all, and we as an audience are pitted against the characters even as we cheer them on toward a relationship as they make a halfhearted attempt to keep it simple. Love seems to need obstacles to overcome, and the obstacles in this case aren't time- or space- or family-related, but are the fears and concerns that make up our everyday lives.
Emma (Natalie Portman) and Adam (Ashton Kutcher) play longtime friends who decide to make a go of it, trading on their mutual attraction for a sexual relationship with no expectations. She's the busy doctor who can't commit and doesn't believe in love anyway, he's the goofy romantic Hollywood assistant who's willing to take her on her terms. So far so good. With each of them daring the other one to fall in love, it seems obvious from the start that they're perfect for each other. We follow them through their non-relationship, complete with secret trysts, emotional complications, family dinners, and various obligations as they attempt to navigate their own feelings as well as the problems that keep a relationship from happening.
Coming off the serious dramatic success of Black Swan and her heralded performance in it, Natalie Portman is only acceptable in her coldhearted and steadfast refusal to be swept away by emotions. Ashton Kutcher plays a slightly less hyper version of himself, all grinning excitement and boyish charm, filled with so much zest for life and patient understanding that it's a little exhausting just to watch this saint of a human deal with the rest of the civilians. The supporting cast is a vast crew of friendly faces, including Kevin Kline as the preposterous and blustery father of Ashton Kutcher's character; Greta Gerwig and Mindy Kaling as Portman's BFFs; Cary Elwes as a distinguished doctor; and the surprising Lake Bell, who stands out above all else as an awkward and timid co-worker looking for love.
No Strings Attached isn't particularly funny; the comedic moments are mostly tired-out tropes that would have been annoying a decade ago. Yet the film is realistic in some ways, and a complete lie in many others, but at its worst it's still a perfectly acceptable romantic comedy. The female characters are capable and strong, if not a little silly, the men are full of bravado and machismo that melts away when it needs to, and there's a dearth of idiotic one-liners (only one violent offender springs to mind). And let's hear it for a film that is set in Los Angeles that actually utilizes the city: Adam is an (improbably attractive) assistant with writer aspirations on a TV show that is Glee-esque, Emma hangs out downtown, and the pair even end up at the very recognizable L.A. County Museum of Art. Whereas 500 Days of Summer tried to convince us that Los Angeles was really more like San Francisco or New York, No Strings Attached likes Los Angeles the way it is, just brighter and cleaner. No Strings Attached won't surprise or enthrall you, but it's a fine way to spend a few hours.

Wanna watch it....

 1) MEGAVIDEO: PART 1
                         PART 2
 2) VIDREEL : HERE


 HAPPY WATCHING!

Can't Wait !!

I remember the last post in my blog was about what my February month is all about...

But things do change and doesn't happen as we have planned it to be...I'm not suppose to be emo!!

I taught the return of my sister back home after a year and half will fill my emptiness and loneliness at home this pass few months after the end of A levels and Bina Tatanegara (BTN). It proved i was wrong...

Now its all about my sister and my life has just gone miserable and invisible!!

From food choice to place to theater to TV channels etc.etc.etc.etc.

Nothing is mine now.It hurts..really really hurt...

I know that she is back to Malaysia after 1 1/2 years.I know she missed every part of Malaysia.I know she miss the food.I'm not blind and heartless creature for not knowing that.

But i'm being treated as one. Is this what called fairness to them?

Of all the things, my sister will be will be only in Malaysia for the next few years at least, even if its not at home.She will be in Penang which is just less than 5 hours apart by drive!

Not her but me that will be a way..far away from home...To be accurate the flight distance between Malaysia and India is 3238 KM or 2012 Miles!! Are they that cruel not to consider that? Are they blind of my presence here?

Of all the days I'm alone, i never really felt alone but now having everyone around me makes me feel really alone..What kind of world is this?

Life is a drama and we humans are the actors on stage. We are fake.Nothing is real.Nothing last forever.Happiness.Health.Wealth.Family.Friends. NOTHING!

SO, live life today as there is no tomorrow. If there is a day called tomorrow, nothing of ours today will be ours tomorrow.

In all this controversy, there a more hot drama happen in facebook. Not facebook exactly. It was about the Kursus Intensive (KI) date which much waited for...

At first, it was partly confirmed by rumors that KI will begin on 28th February. It was not totally confirmed than.

Later we got another new that KTT have officially confirmed that KI will start on 28th Februaary but there is no new from JPA side as the officers are busy with the evacuation of students from Egypt.

When all the student was busy booking and arranging flight and transport to make a comeback to KTT especially those from the east of Malaysia( Sabah, Sarawak and Brunei(Huzai)haha.. ). A parent from one of us called JPA just to confirmed. We got hit by a new bomb!! JPA have told that they will begin the course on the 7th March.

WHAT!!!!???!

Those who have booked their flight was the one most moved with the news.OMG what to do in KTT till 7th March with no apartment and have to share with juniors!

The the much waited news came from Faruqi.It was confirmed by JPA and KTT that KI start on 28th February.Fuh! What a relief!!
Than i noticed Miss Syairah's wall post.YES its 100% confirm.

DEAR 1.5 YEARS STUDENTS(2009/2010)..
KI REGISTRATION WILL BE ON 28 FEBRUARY 2011..
CONFIRM...

I'm going back to college! To KTT!!!

In just less than 2 weeks i will be heading my way back to the jungle..Yeah it was fun there

And now i can have more and more fun while learning தமிழ்(Tamil),हिंदी(Hindi) and ಕನ್ನಡ(Kannada)..

Cool isn't it??

A prefect way to escape from the mental torture i'm in...

February!

Come this February, everyone will be waiting for Chinese New Year on 2nd and 3rd February, Valentines Day on 14th February and also Cap Goh Meh on 17 February...











But for me February can only remind me of my sister who is coming back on 13th February.YES its today!!
I just cant wait to meet her again... It has been more than a year since i actually met her!!
YES!!The last time i meet her was in September 2009 when she came back Malaysia for her 1st year summer holidays....I'm really really excited that i'm gonna meet her now and that i can at last spend some quality sister-sister time together before i make my way to KTT for KI (Kurssus Intensive), while my sister going to Penang Medical College to continue 3rd year medicine...

Aahhaa..that means we are going to the Kuala Lumpur International Airport(KLIA) to pick her up.Going to KLIA is already a yearly event for my family since 2005.The first year my brother fly to United Kingdom.Since then we have to go to the KLIA to send off or to receive them..At first, i taught that KLIA is a huge place that we can get lost in.Well, since every year we are going there at least twice for teh past 6 years, i feel that KLIA is such a small airport.Even i know the in and out of the airport already!

Here are some cool shots of KLIA (From Goggle Images)

Well February is not only about my sister's homecoming...
There's something big about me too..

Its the end of my P license!! 

Yes Yes Yes That means i will be getting a full driving license before i actually turn 20.
I'm 19 and i have a full driving license! Do you??

Its time to say Goodbye to my P license and say hello to full license..
Not officially yet since my P license only expire on the 19th  February! But STILLL!!!! Its just days for it...

To remember my P license...

I'm really excited about getting my full license...Hmmm...i don't know why?I'm just excited even if i'm not going to drive much after this..

Another thing that most probably that gonna take place this month will be going back to KTT.Unofficial dates from KTT itself states 28 February as the start of KI but unfortunately  JPA haven't confirm any of the dates and given us a complicated statement as the first week of March.

Its not JPA fault totally as they are currently busy with Malaysian evacuation from Egypt.Take your time JPA, but don't make us wait too long and give us last minute notice.

Wednesday The 9th February 2011

Wednesday, 9th February 2011

Hmmm...what can I say about today...Just too many memories related to this date in the past year and today here am I at home sitting alone in front of the television watching AXN CSI (S9)...

My parents had to leave me home alone to attend a funeral. It’s my uncle's father passed away peaceful because of old age yesterday....~May You Rest In Peace~

I'm sorry I could not pay you my last respect as I’m stuck with my muscle cramps...My prayers will always be there for you grandpa...

Today is the birthday of a long lost friend  of mine, Danny*...Not to say lost...To be accurate we had a fought and it had been 2 years I guess since than...We still have each other’s Yahoo Messenger and contact number yet we never did contact each other...WHY? Maybe it’s because of the EGO between us...I wait for him to contact me while he waits for me..I don't really know if he still cared for a friend like me anymore.YES it might be my fault the whole fight stared...But my apology don't mean anything to him then.As time passed, I taught it wasn't my fault after all and I give up.

We was good friends than, so everyone knew we are friends.It was a tough time after the fought when people asked me about him to me.My only answer will be “I can't be bothered bout him”, which practically left those asking clueless...Yes I do feel guilty sometimes for being so sarcastic. But then honestly what do I care?

Last year on this date, I remember I was close to Jay* and Phoenix.They were Certificate in Computer Science student in college.Well not everyone of A Levels student befriend with other course student in KTT..It’s some sort of tradition I guess...So like everyone guessed there were many scandals about us in college.Some as bad as saying that I coupled with one of the guy!! OMG!! That was really miserable time in college!

It was this same day I went up hill with Jay, Phoenix and Yoges...It’s also where the whole issue of TANGLISH came up! I really can't recall how it came about but that small issues had torn our friendship apart as well..He created a social network group, some sort against me..I was angry and I just stop talking.That was pretty much the end to my friendship with Jay.

The year 2011 came by, I decided that I don't wanna lose my friendship that has taken months and years to build but only a day to destroy it!I made up with Jay.I accept it as no one is prefect and no one can escape from making mistakes in their life right?

I have forgiven Danny too even I know that nothing will be same again...Hey I have learned to let it go.You know it too, our life have taken a turn since than.I'm not expecting anything from you.No never will I..Even when you came back to me asking help for AS A Levels Chemistry, I did it with open heart and expecting nothing but a simple word of thanks from you which I did not get...

Its ok, for at least I have known who you really are.I should thank you.

Anyway I would like to wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Expecting nothing in return!

A message send to me from Jay on 9^th February 2010

(Its in Tamil)

 ((0))

=!=

Intha flower namma relationship ku

adaiyalama vachukonga!

Please idhu vaadame irruka,

ungga mobiley thanni tank la

pottu vainge. :-p

Kept  this message just as a memory....

*Name has been changed to maintain privacy..hehehe…

Color Meanings

Everything is made up of electromagnetic energy vibrating at different frequencies that correspond to sound, light and color.

We are drawn to the colors that are needed to create balance in our lives. The goal in all healing is to create balance.

Color Frequencies

RED
Red is the color of energy, vitality and power. It is used for burning out cancer, drying up weeping sores or wounds, etc. It will warm cold areas to reduce pain. Red is a powerful healing agent for healing diseases of the blood and circulation. It will help with depression.
Red is not to be used on people with high blood pressure or anxiety. If you are exposed to red for a considerable time, it may make you agitated or even aggressive. It is associated with the male polarity. A red carpet, or wall in a place of business, will draw money. If you are a sales person, try wearing something red!


ORANGE
Orange represents the mental body in both its logical and conceptual form. It is used to increase immunity, to increase sexual potency, to help in all digestive ailments, and in chest and kidney diseases. Orange will have a warming effect if used lightly. Orange, like red, should not be used for too long. It's not a good color for nervous people or those easily agitated.

YELLOW
Yellow is the color of the intellect and is used for mental stimulation. It will help you think quicker and is good for clearing a foggy head! Yellow can be used to help cure dermatitis and other skin problems and to help cure depression.

GREEN
Green is the color of healing. It will balance the emotions and brings about a feeling of calmness. Green is a good general healing color as it stimulates growth and therefore is good for helping heal broken bones and the regrowth of tissue of all kinds.
If you wish to help heal someone who is ill, begin by asking if the person wants to be healed - sounds like a silly question, but necessary. You cannot promise to heal them, but can make them feel more comfortable.
Find a relaxed, calm place and make sure the person is fully relaxed. Visualise the color green coming through your palms as you hold them just above, or gently on the person. Scan their body for 'hot' or 'cold' spots as these indicate where blockages are. Visualise the green healing energies coming through you as you work. Visualise them entering the person's body at the higher levels, especially the emotional body. Feel you connection to the higher frequencies as you heal. Try to repeat the healing for 10 mintues, for 3 consecutive days.

BLUE
Blue is the color of electricity. It is the color of truth, serenity, and harmony by helping to sooth the mind. Blue is good for cooling, calming, reconstructing and protecting. Blue will help feverish conditions, help stop bleeding and will help with nervous irritations. It is very good for burns.
Too much blue could leave you cold, depressed and sorrowful.

PURPLE
Purple is a color that will connect you with your spiritual self. It is good for mental and nervous problems. It will assist very well with rheumatism and epilepsy. It helps with pain and is used in deep tissue work.
Too much purple and you don't tend to live in this world.

LAVENDER
Lavender is the color of equilibrium. It helps with spiritual healing.

WHITE
White includes all of the colors of the spectrum. It represents the source of conscious creation. It will purify the body on the highest levels. It is the highest charging field to bring peace and comfort at the highest level.

SILVER
Silver is the color of peace and persistence. It is the major purging color so is very good for removing unwanted diseases and troubles from the body. It is best for cancer of tissue and blood.

GOLD
Gold is the strongest color to help cure all illnesses. It is so strong that many people are not able to tolerate it, so people have to be conditioned to gold over a period of time. Gold strengthens all fields of the body and spirit.